It was a bit harsh to start the meeting last night to be honest. Between my arrival at the rectory at 6:50 pm and wait till 7:10 pm, no one had shown up except for me. The dearth of membership was sort of expected this time of the year since 3 years ago. The usual reason is due to students taking a long summer vacation to Korea to see their families. But this time, it was that reason plus ppl who got sick due to the seasonal change and students having finals or things to finish before the final semester.
At around 7:15pm, upon Hyung Kyung's arrival, our meeting had begun with a rosary prayer. I could see from her voice she felt awkward to pray rosary only with me, but for me, I'd been there and done that, not once but quite few times. One of the blessings I'd received from God and Virgin Mary (or I'll receive) was a valuable experience to lead meetings by myself with Fr. Jung. Of course, I believe there were saints and angels having prayed with our Commander in Chief, Virgin Mary. Regardless of the blessed experience I feel and the legitimate reasons touted me about their absence, it's still not the most pleasant experience to a group lead who feel accountable for any undesirable consequences. Even in those golden days, when we are at the peak of participation like having 15 ppl have come to the meeting so there was no room for another, I still had this thought of that someday, I would have to face a situation like I had last night. And it came true...again. Keeping in my mind the lesson learned from those undesirable situations that we will survive as long as He wants us to do thus, I pressed the meeting.
Around 7:20 pm, Eun Hee's mom dropped by and handed us a note, in which she had to summarize her portion of the instruction book as a homework. It gave me a strong message that she cared so much that even asked her mother to deliver the notebook so we can share her work. I started feeling relieved.
At 7:40 pm or so, Ji hyun came just in time to join us to wrap up the beginning prayer and her visit was followed by SWP.
One after another, we are getting more.
5 minutes later or so, Jae Chul brought his game partner,Yuri, randomly assigned from the Jjak Kkung game to complete one of their missions, to visit the YAG legio. His visit wasn't expected at all because he was among few people who gave me a firm negative answer when asked to come. Maybe because he was so resistant, his visit was like a sip of water in scorching desert or like a feeling from a guy when he finally win a date from a girl who turned down his asking many times. And just to put a negative spin on this, those who told me would come visit us didn't make it at all. -_- And then, Jae Min came and joined us for the final prayer. And after the meeting, I realized we were all needed for some reason, helping move the desk to upstairs for Fr. Jung's use. Though it was a long day for, I'm sure, all of us, I was glad to help out.
This Sunday is Mother's day, and as we all know and as Jesus told us before dying on the cross, Virgin Mary is our eternal mother. Besides choosing flowers for our dedication, as a group lead I wanted to show her that we all gather to pray as each one of us being her soldiers under her command and as each of one of us counted as a stem of rose to become a beautiful floral bouquet as a whole. Maybe it was my way of showing, and God had an alternative plan, but it worked out perfectly well in the end. He showed me that it can be done beyond my plan and prediction. Thus I should learn to lean on his plan with faith like a baby embracing his mother's bosom. His plan is not transparent to me at all. In the mean time, I should not hang too tight on my plan though it is much transparent and seemingly viable. As some saint said, faith is irony as Jesus said once to us that those, who die for his friends and with faith to God, shall live eternally in the kingdom of heaven.
